31.1.10

The FUN theory @ 31.1.10

what a neat idea..totally inspired by this. I wish my thesis was as simple and moving as this.

you never realize what a beautiful thing you had until you lose it...

was it just an ephemeral experience...or a dream..

why do i love you?

If loving you only mean
Bitter thoughts that you are near
And yet so far

Why do I love you
If loving you only mean
Sleepless nights for hopes and dreams

Why did you hurt my heart that way
Why did you take my love away

29.1.10

Street Style @ 29.1.10

had to help a friend out apply for a job so I had to be photographed in streetwear..rockin the Teammanila hoodie + Puma shoes ;P and "jeggers" skinny by F21!
pix by Carrie, edited by me.

because photography class is the only chance that I have to take photos.

just a sweet Japanese Street Style site:
http://www.style-arena.jp/street/

27.1.10

Looking for you ever...since @ 27.1.10

fun shoot @ class! sportin my Teammanila shirt =)

going to take my lomo again for another test run =)

just some stuff

credit to Myles for the left shot of Anubis ;P

24.1.10

Smiling as I recollect those sweet memories @ 24.1.10

My birthday weekend.
I'm forever grateful to have great friends/family that knows how to have a good time. Thankful that they came out on my bday and I truly appreciate their company. Receiving unconditional love from friends, gifts.. even if I sometimes act bratty =P LOL. I don't know what I did to deserve all their kindness and friendship. But I can't help but feel loved <3 It's a great feeling.

All smiles!

Busy bday celebrations starting Thurs! from bars to lounges, restaurants, dimsum, Japanese buffet and Chinese Buffet..Thai.. clubbing.. my weekend was nothing but pure busy fun....and I still have one more event to plan with my AN-crew.
and it will all feel complete. I'm glad that the people I thought who weren't gonna show up, did.. faces I thought I would never see again, friends from first year of school that I tried so hard to get together. It was pretty overwhelming yet amazing..

AND YES I DID HAVE A LIL TOO MUCH TO DRINK :P I can't remember some stuff that happened that night. haha. I'm just glad I have my bf by my side to take care of me...all night long.. I don't deserve his love, I've let him down too many times... starting from drinking a lil' too much on my birthday to chopping off my hair (that he still can't get over with) to going shopping without him...etc. etc. etc.

Much love,
=)

HIGHLIGHTS OF THE BDAY WEEKEND :P

the CAPRI-QUARIUS birthday of Mark & I

the King and Queen of Hearts (both wearing pink)... and surprisingly we both end up wearing stripes.. hmm what a monochromatic couple we are, different shades of pink again. aye sir! LMAO

GUESS HU CAME?! LOL.

starting to get a little too happy...

I must've been reached total happiness at this point, mixed with a little bit of craziness... think I've had a lil too much to drink already right about this time.. yup, evidence proves it.

SAT.
Myles' grandma's bday

dinner and gossip talk with my girlfriends ;P

some yummy desserts/latte before partying at the club :P

yeah, i did throw a BIG party for all the rest of my friends... can't help it if I'm just THAT popular... *sigh* (LOL!)

you gotta have the swing in the club ;P

SUN.
All you can eat sushi..you can never have enough.... ROUNDS!

Shopping and checking out V-DAY merchandise. I LOVE YOU, THAT'S RIGHT, YOU!

18.1.10

still...I cross the street to your door @ 18.1.10

Just want to say a shoutout to my dearest cuz, PHILIPPE.

I MISS YOU
&
I LOVE YOU ^_^

Hoping that I'm able to see you again.
It's different without you, seems like my creativity is down the low.
Your support and your inspiration...your artsy ideas!
we never got to GO to the AGO together..
but I have this brilliant idea and I think you might just like it when I share it with you.

If you're somehow reading this blog entry,
I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU A BIGGG HUG when I come see you!

Hopefully sooner rather than later. How's the weather there? sigh.

Anyways, I'm off, not feeling too good..
if the newspapers tomorrow come out with a headline like this:
DEATH BY CAFFEINE

for sure you can find my name written somewhere on it.

Damn caffeine allergy.. I can take a sip or two
but can never indulge,

ELSE...
this happens.
stomach pains..

JUST PLAIN AWFUL!

IS THE HAZELNUT MOCCHA LATTE WORTH THE PAIN IN THE END?

Yes... and I don't regret a single drop of it ;P
I'm left with this somewhat liberating, satisfying feeling...
even though I have to go through the pain.

COFFEE & LOVE.
it's bittersweet...

BUT
I prefer LATTE.
It's more on the sweet side ;P

13.1.10

I'm helpless without your warming smile @ 13.1.10

"It's been said that eyes are the key to the soul. If not the key, they certainly are the gateway. "

I want to buy a DSLR.. thinking about the OLYMPUS pen.. I LOVE IT, compact, the kind of camera I could bring everywhere, everyday...still...I think I should stick to Nikon so I can use my bf & dad's lenses..had to switch from Canon to Nikon, unfortunately, because of this reason.. I guess I can ask for advice from my photography prof. If not, then I guess I'll go for Nikon d5000...I have a feeling this will be more reasonable...I NEED TO START TAKING PHOTOS AGAIN. I'm having photography withdrawals..

Love is all about proper timing, its amazing when one person likes another, builds up courage to tell that person and the other person feels the same way. It's amazing when that happens because all that hard work the person invests pays off. That's why the saying that the end result of happiness is half hardship. A person can be that happy at the end because they've worked so hard to try and achieve it. That's why when people daydream or imagine happiness they feel empty afterwards, because they didn't do anything to try to realize their dream.

Happiness is not something given to you...it's something you have to create for yourself..

What's very scary about loving someone is that you're trusting someone else with your happiness. People do not like to surrender any part of themselves completely to another person because that's giving the other person a lot of power over them. But when you really love someone you should be able to trust them that they will take care of you. To not do that means you are still valuing your own feelings more than the other person.

Love ...is about wanting to make someone else as happy as you are able to.

12.1.10

it's gonna get busy from here... @ 12.1.10

doing research for my school yet again...not that I should complain, I need the job..it would look good on my resume.. yadda yadda.. but that means I might have to delay my long awaited trip back home... and stop over somewhere closer, an escape for a week =( gotta see how it goes..
I might be on hiatus due to thesis...I like that I'm busy though. Gives me a reason NOT TO BE LAZY.

"Don't worry about failure. Worry about the chances you miss when you don't even try"

3.1.10

welcome 2010, goodbye 2009.. @ 3.1.10

A few thoughts for the year ahead:

Live is life as life is to live.
Life can be full of hardships but we must live on.
Hardships can only do you such good but it's a negative.
Negativity is not health for the subconscious mind.
Subconsciousness is the root to one's true self.
Creation is what brings the human mind at a newer level.

...

So it's January, my birthday is coming up soon...the stress of getting older, but feeling like I haven't done much with my life...the stress applies more to FINALLY meeting my bf's family. Usually I always thought of the opposite, that the guy would feel nervous meeting his girl's parents, but not in my case. My family LOVES my bf (DAMN he had such an easy time..I thought they would interrogate him like there was no tomorrow... now he's like family, my mom always worries about him, asking about him...heck even my dad, though he tries to hide it, loves him..especially when he pulled me away secretly cuz he bought my bf something for Christmas—much to my surprise—and asked for my opinion of his 'gift' to him...LOL!) I just hope that when I meet his family, they would welcome me with open arms just like how my family did to him. I know it will be awkward at first, that's a given for sure.. but I have this fear that I'm not good enough for him, gosh I would hate if they ask me if I can cook... (do microwaveable dishes count?) I can make congee!! LOL. GAH! I guess I never realized how awesome my parents are...They're quite pretty chill... LOL! Why can't life sometimes make it easy for me?? I already have plenty of regrets...of things I've let go when I should've fought for..loss times, unspoken words, the what ifs...

But we'll see how it goes...
yet another chapter to this book called life...
do I finish the book or walk away from it..

xoxo

HIGHLIGHTS FROM OUR NEW YEARS PARTY:
Tito Aiko & dad (sitting while asleep).. totally OUT! LMAO. everyone laughed so hard the next day when we all looked at the pictures together

SAKE BOMBS!! (the reason why my uncle was totally out after a couple of em) he apparently ALSO had some wine/JD etc.

bonding time >_<

my dad showing some love =P

and most of all, spending the countdown and the beginning of the new year with someone special, with our matching, monochromatic purple colour scheme ;P