R,
you're so incredibly intelligent & cool. give yourself a pat on the back for being such a goddamn smart-ass. Love the choice of emotionally driven diction. I love it, love it, love it!
i'm crying inside
i just have this gut feeling that nothing good is gonna happen for me this year.
I work so hard, now i'm done but it doesn't feel anything special. to others, they must've received opportunities and privileges and free trips for a month. for me? not even a "good job" or a pat in the back. and even if I want to reward myself, I'm not even allowed to do so =( that's what sad about it. even if I want to treat myself, I can't. that I gotta keep on working, yet I feel no motivation. I just need something to inspire me again. just something that will keep me going, i've exhausted myself... i wish there was someone i can talk to.
time to sleep it off.
